Log Date : 31 Dec 2021 - #DearFutureMe

 Hi, Future Rizki!

It's me, 2021 Rizki, saying hi from the past to you! Semoga lo selalu diberikan kesehatan dan keberkahan untuk kalian semua disana! How's Zell dan Bundo? Semoga mereka selalu diberikan kesehatan dan keberkahan ya! Dan apakah Zell sudah punya adik?? Ho-Ho-Ho, you sly bastard, way to go if you do!! Are Mom and Dad and Ading fine? I hope they still happy and accompanying all of you!!

Well, I just want to say Hi, maybe it's been a rough week for you, and it's almost the end of 2021. I think it's our obligation to give ourselves some pat on the back and preparing some reminders for our futures for some memories log! Maybe grab some popcorn, just a bit. It won't take too long

OK, let me start:

• CONGRATULATIONS!! our beloved daughter have born! She was a cute girl since day one and getting cuter and funnier and smarter day by day! Don't forget to keep sending her photos and videos to her email! I'll start sending it to her tomorrow.
• You got some raise and lifted of the SP Ban as per this December!! And I hope I took a right decision for us in the future regarding our job. Please, remember what you believed : give contribution, do not seek for recognition, awards come for those who worth.
• Remember From These Boxes? You started it on this year! How's it going of there? I hope you got some significant improvement since today.
• And also remember that you have that Jotaro Kujo's costume? Still using it? Why you still using it, man!? But yeah, I'll be happy if you still wear it.
• This year is your First Anniversary with Bundo! All is well and I hope still going well for many billion years ahead! We love our wife so much, and She love us too. No doubt in that shit.
• ESSE's HONEYPOP is the best!
• Remember that you have a bunch of shiny glittering cards that might have some valuables in the future. Keep it clean, keep it pristine. And also some HotWheels and some toys. But don't sell them! Fuck, they are your treasure, man! Don't sell them at all cost. Sell the cards.
• Do you add more books in our tsundoku collection? What books do you add? Man, I hope I managed to recap all the books we have. I'll put it right here, if I managed to finished it.
• Ading finished her GradSchool this year. Did she got her first job yet? I hope she managed it well!! Can't wait to see what she capable of professionally. She'll make Dad proud.
• Managed to drive the motorbike yet? You won the Office's Grandprize this year! It's a motorbike.
• And the last thing to gave you some reminder: you managed to pass a half of 2021 as a LiveStreamer on Twitch, and after the birth of our beloved daughter, you managed to gain some viewers on Youtube as FTB and sold some singlecards on TokPed.

I think that's all I want to say and remind you. I hope it's enough - I focused on the significant ones that might be helpful one day in the future.

Stay healthy and stay foolish, my friend. Give Zell and Bundo and Mom and Dad and Ading some kisses and hugs. I love them so much.

Smell you around,

2021 Rizki

Log Date : 27 Dec 2021

Sebuah rencana terkadang hanya menjadi sebuah wacana walaupun telah diiringi oleh niat dan juga hasrat.

Blogpost terakhir di blog ini gue buat pada tanggal 1 April 2020, yang dimana menjadi terlihat seperti sebuat anti-thesis atas statement gue pertama kali membuat blog ini : menulis setiap hari, despite apapun yang terjadi. Namun kembali lagi - itu hanyalah sebuah rencana. Pada saat itu, hal ini nampak sangat realistis dan feasible untuk dilakukan. Apalagi yang dapat dilakukan oleh seorang pemuda berumur 28 tahun di malam-malam sendirinya?

It's kind of funny ketika mengetik hal ini pada saat ini. Tahun belum berganti menjadi 2022, namun banyak yang sudah berganti semenjak 2020 silam. Things happens so freaking fast, all I see was blurred lines. Banyak hal yang berubah semenjak 2020 lalu: gue telah menjadi seorang suami dan seorang bapak, gue mendekati umur 30, adik gue sudah tidak berhubungan dengan pacarnya dari tahun 2020 lalu, harddisk yang berisikan koleksi film dan lagu sudah berpulang ke Microchip Yang Maha Agung, PlayStation 5 sudah rilis dan alhamdulillah gue sudah memilikinya, the born of my beautiful daughter, gue membuka sebuah toko kartu di salah satu online marketplace, gue membuat beberapa konten di youtube, gue sempat melakukan live streaming di Twitch, gue iseng membuat podcast yang hanya berisikan gue dengan dua karakter lain yang merupakan diri gue sendiri namun diubah pitch suaranya, dan lain-lain yang ga mungkin bisa gue inget satu per satu. Fuck, it's been two years since.

Some might changes, but some still standing on their own feet.

Pandemi masih berjalan, gue masih tinggal di gedung ini dengan istri dan anak gue, gue masih belum punya rumah landed, gue belum ganti HP sampai sekarang, gue masih mengoleksi stiker, buku dan kartu, masih banyak buku gue yang belum sempat gue baca dari tahun-tahun lalu, masih berkutat di department Human Capital, masih berada di kantor yang sama, masih mengelola akun art yang sama sampai sekarang.

Banyak hal yang berubah dengan cepat dan tidak terasa, ada juga yang mengena sampai ke dalam jiwa dan membekas baik secara mental maupun jasmani. Ada kehilangan dan juga ada juga suatu perjumpaan. Ada yang menjadi lebih baik, ada yang memberikan keburukan pada sisi tertentu.

Sebuah rencana terkadang hanya menjadi sebuah wacana : rencana-rencana gue dari tahun 2020 lalu banyak yang menghilang, namun juga banyak yang mendadak muncul dan bahkan menjadi suatu prioritas. Banyak yang sudah gue rencanakan, namun kita tidak bisa berkata "Nope, I have this plan for myself now.." kepada Dia yang sudah menciptakan kita. Kun faya Kun - terjadi maka terjadilah. Dan semua terjadi begitu saja, tanpa ba-bi-bu, tanpa seruan apapun. And here I am, sitting on the living room and writing, while my Wife resting in the bedroom with our lovely daughter.

Things might go beyond what we've planned or expect. Some might lead into an eternal happiness, some might be leads into something in the contrary. But once again, human might plan, but God will act according their master plan, for you and the better you and your better future.

Why I preached??